Do you ever feel like you're drowning? Like no matter how hard you kick and struggle to keep your head above water, you still get sucked under? Sometimes, it doesn't feel worth it to even keep trying. Your body is exhausted, your lungs are on fire, and fighting feels futile. I see you, sweet one. I see you. I see your kicking slowing down, I see you giving up, and I see your lost hope. I see you, completely overwhelmed, in the grocery store. I see you in faking a smile in church hallways. I see you on the verge of tears, in the carpool lane at your kid's school. I picture you searching for motivation to go to work. I picture you coming home, throwing on some sweats, sinking into your couch, curling up with the remote, and giving up. It feels like you've lost the war, and you won't ever experience God the way you once did. So you choose to camp out at home alone. You're not answering the phone when your friends call. You're just not excited about anything anymore. You're drowning, and no matter who offers you a life raft, you're just not interested. The thought of swimming against the current to grab on to the raft seems so daunting, that you're perfectly content to just stay and sink. Do you relate? Pull up a chair, sweet one.
God has been whispering to me what I'm about to whisper to you. You ready? OK, listen up:
You can't keep your head above water.
I know what you're thinking. "Whoa, what?! I thought you were going to help me, Sara. Why would you say something like this to me? I'm reading to be encouraged, not discouraged." Read it again, closer this time. YOU can't keep your head above water. But that doesn't mean you have to drown! You have the power of God within you. He can keep you above water, but you can't. You are a part of the winning team, but the losing team is putting cinder blocks on your ankles to keep you from rising to the top. The devil will say and do anything to pull you under. He'll say things like "you're damaged goods" or "no one wants you" or "you have nothing to offer" or "you may as well quit, you'll just fail anyway" or "there's nothing lovable about you".
….No ma'am. Not even close.
….No ma'am. Not even close.
"But Eve was tricked by the snakes clever lies. And I'm afraid that in the same way your minds will somehow be led down the wrong path. They will be led away from your true and pure love for Christ." -2 Corinthians 11:3
Clever lies. That's what the devil does. He saves his best work for what he hates most, and he has clearly hated God's people from the very beginning. Therefore, you sweet one, have a big honkin' target on your back. He's coming hard for you because you represent Jesus. You represent light. You represent hope…. and he wants nothing more than to obliterate it, stomp it out, torch it, and defeat it. He wants to defeat you. He targets those who seek the heart and will of God, because he knows what you're capable of. He sees the power of God ready to be unleashed in you, and he's threatened by it. He's threatened by you! You're no one who is weak, you're no one who has nothing to offer, and you're definitely no one who is doomed for certain failure. You're someone who is intimidating. IF YOU ARE UNDER ATTACK, THAT MEANS YOU ARE A THREAT! Stand strong in that truth, dear one.
"Be on your guard. Remain strong in faith. Be brave." -1 Corinthians 16:13
Even though you may not feel strong, sweet girl, our great God IS! You can be brave knowing that He is always on your side. Though people may fail you and feed you these lies, He never will!
"Be strong and brave. Don't be afraid of them. Don't be terrified because of them. The Lord your God will go with you. He will never leave you. He'll never desert you." -Deuteronomy 31:6
He will protect you. He is our hope, and our only hope for peace. He'll pull you up out of the deep end, but only if you'll let Him. He's waiting to clean the lies out of your head. He's waiting to pull you out of this flood, because He'd so much rather flood your head with His peace.
"I will offer you peace like a river and glory like an overflowing stream." -Isaiah 66:12