Wednesday, June 1, 2016

To The One Who CAN'T Drop The Weight

You see the "Hot Now" sign flashing at the Krispy Kreme and do a U turn. You see that sign and you've just got to have it. NOW. Maybe you nibble on one… Maybe you devour three. 

….and then you HATE YOURSELF. 

You hate yourself because you already hated the number on the scale this morning, and you just added to it.

You told yourself that you had a hard day and you needed some comfort in the form of deep fried sugar. You're jealous that other women seem to eat whatever they want and don't gain an ounce. But you? If you so much as LOOK at a slice of pizza and gain 3 pounds. But food has got a hold on you. Why does the grocery store feel to you like a liquor store feels to an alcoholic? Temptation is everywhere and you just can't stop buying all the junk they got. You tell yourself you'll try harder tomorrow, but you just can't seem to dump this extra weight. You've tried dieting so many times only to end up neck deep in chocolate ice cream. Why can't you just pull a TSwift and shake it off? 

Consider this: the fall of man came in the form of what? FOOD. Satan tempted Eve with a piece of fruit {probably because they didn't have Cinnabon or Haagen Dazs back then--let's be real.} Sin came into the world for the very first time by eating food.

What did Satan tempt Jesus with out in the desert? BREAD. Because let's be honest, who hasn't eaten a disproportionate amount of bread from the communal bread basket on a restaurant table while out to eat with friends? 

Why did the Hebrews start to want to go back into Egypt into the bondage God just liberated them from? Because they got hungry

The Bible talks about food a lot. Why? BECAUSE IT'S TEMPTING. Food was created to give us energy, but for some of us, we're addicted. I'll be honest. I feel like I like food more than your average person. I'm obsessed with it, and I can count the things I DON'T like to eat on one hand. I like it all, and I want it all. I have been in a pattern my entire life of starving myself fat. I eat nothing all day to try to get the number on the scale to fall down, until I'm so hungry I end up eating everything in sight. Those hunger pangs make me intensely crave sugar & carbs. I've tried fad diets, starving myself, and I end up making late night junk food runs. I decided to get off the diet yo yo for good this year. But to do that, I had to do some soul searching on how I ended up here hating myself so much for the number on a scale. If you relate, pull up a chair and let's figure out how we're going to beat this together. 

Yes, I struggle with food because it tastes good, BUT! I also seek food because I'm seeking something. I suspect the same goes for you, sweet one. You're looking for something to fill a hole in your heart. Something hurts you and you run to the fridge to fix it {usually late at night when you're all alone}. What hurts you? I don't know. Maybe you have anxiety about the way your life is going, maybe you feel lonely, maybe you feel ugly, maybe you feel damaged, maybe you feel rejected, or maybe you're just numb. Something is sending you to the drive thru window. 

There's a root to what is going on with you struggling to get this weight off. Because there's a root, no diet will fix you. Even if you manage to get skinny, you'll end up here again someday. You've got to get down to the source of the problem to fix this. You have to destroy the self defeat or someday you will AGAIN find yourself crying in a dressing room because the bigger size doesn't fit. 

Before you reach for that bag of cookies, ask yourself "Am I hungry or hurting?" Because for you, the line has been blurred and it's hard to tell the difference. But those cookies will NOT fix you. They won't heal your hurt. They will only make you hurt worse. The self hatred only continues to grow, and therefore you need more cookies, and round and round the cycle goes. 

So how do you get off this merry go round? This is what I have concluded for me: JESUS is the only real comfort I have. ChickFilA won't fix me. As delicious as it is, it will not heal this hurt inside me. Only Jesus can heal me, and He wants to do the same for you, my lovely. He doesn't want you to wallow in self loathing alone--He came to walk alongside you to set you FREE.

"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you?" 
-1 Corinthians 6:19

People talk about bodies being temples, and people like us tend to think as OTHER people's bodies being temples. BETTER bodies are temples, right? Better bodies that don't have love handles or stretch marks are temples. No ma'am. I think not. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, and God doesn't make junk. But this world is full of junk. So you have to take your junk to Jesus. Junk food can't fix your junk, but Jesus can. No amount of Thin Mints are going to bandage up your wounds, but He will. 

"He is the healer of the brokenhearted. He bandages up their wounds." 
-Psalm 147:3

He not only CAN HE bandage up your wounds, but He's EAGER to. He cares for you, and He WANTS to heal your hurts. Why? Because He cares about you in a radical way. He is crazy about you because YOU are God's masterpiece. 

"Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you."
-1 Peter 5:7

At the end of the day, it's not living up to a beauty standard that is the problem for you. If you deal with self hate, a shrinkage on the scale won't change it. BELIEVE ME. Losing 40 pounds didn't fix it for me a few years back, because now I need to lose 50. You've got to reach for the Word instead of cheese fries because those cheese fries will only hurt you more than you're already hurting now. Instead of grabbing that leftover pizza out of the fridge next time you are lonely or sad, seriously--cry out to Him. He's waiting enthusiastically to team up with you to make you stop hating yourself. I pray that you see Him the way He sees you, as His creation that He not only loves, but that He is proud of. He rejoices and sings over you, and I pray that you believe that. 

"The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you by His love; He will exult over you with singing."
-Zephaniah 3:17

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